Amazed

I'm sitting her watching my 14 month old daughter fight an early morning nap and I'm just amazed at the miracle of life.  Perhaps it's kismet that today is Ash Wednesday which  usually brings a time of reflection for me.  I look at Kayla and think how blessed I am that she is here.  I've now shared our story with you but what I can't yet share are the thoughts going through my head those first few days when she was in the NICU.  Whether it was paranoia or what I don't know, but I couldn't help but think dark thoughts -- every time I walked in to the NICU, I expected the worst and was relieved when I saw my little bundle getting a little bit bigger and bigger every day. 

Now, Kayla is walking and babbling all day long.  She's hitting all her milestones (even if a bit late) and I can't reconcile the tiny 3.7 lb preemie to the 20-lb chunky monkey in front of me. Every day that she grows and my love grows with her.  I never imagined that my heart could grow so much and burst with pride at this amazing little person.  

I'll end this sappy post with a picture form this afternoon -- enjoying her lunch!